Unbearable Suffering: A Personal Battle With the Enigmatic Pain of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It was a dreary weekday morning in the autumn of 2016. I was working as a teacher, trying to settle a new group of students, when a sharp sensation bloomed behind my right eye. This was followed by rapid shocks, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As the school day came and went, the pain eased and then came back with greater intensity. Four times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with activities and hurried to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I tried paracetamol, but the agony remained unbearable.

The attacks appeared frequently that autumn, and again in spring, soon establishing an annual pattern. September and October were the worst, then the late winter. I could predict the pattern: aura in the shower, early pangs on the commute, full-blown agony in the classroom by 9.30am. In 2019, a doctor finally referred me to a neurologist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headache disorder.

This condition often start with intense pain around one eye that lasts up to three hours.

Approximately one in 1,000 people are affected by the disorder, and men are more often diagnosed. Attacks typically start with sudden, excruciating pain focused on one eye that peaks within a short time and lasts for up to three hours. Attacks come in clusters, every day or several times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or face sweating. There exists the episodic form, which occurs in periodic bouts; others have chronic attacks, characterized by the absence of extended pain-free periods.

What connects sufferers is the intensity. One study scored the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, higher than broken bones or other conditions. A separate discovered 64% of cluster headache patients reported thoughts of self-harm during bouts; the number fell to 4% when they were pain-free.

One patient, 74, a long-term sufferer from Wales, finds this understandable. Her attacks began when she was two. “I would throw myself on the ground and bang my head. That was put down to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms deteriorated through her youth. Alcohol in her adolescence, like many causes, made things worse. After drinking sherry at her graduation party, she recalls barely being able to see on the bus home.

Her family often interpreted her attacks as drunken episodes. Support finally came from her father and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after relocating, but often hid her condition. She was fired from one job, partly due to time off during episodes. Her breakthrough identification came in 2002 at a national neurology center.

Nevertheless, the failure to plan daily activities around unpredictable attacks took its effect. She particularly hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her children during the paralysis caused by the worst episodes. “It steals from you of the simple freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an episode inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been documented throughout history. “The earliest account of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in 4000BC,” write authors in a book on the subject. They attributed the disease to an malevolent spirit who attacked his victims' heads.

Historical healing records propose unusual remedies for what modern observers would classify as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, migraine was identified as a distinct disorder, with therapies ranging from herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious remedies.

It was a Dutch physician who provided the first comprehensive description of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache occurring and disappearing each day at specific hours”.

The disorder were only officially recognised by global headache committees in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a major artery which delivers blood to the head. Leading experts in treating the disorder explain this.

In 1998, researchers released the results of a research project for which they had triggered attacks in patients and observed the episodes in a brain scanner. The data, published in a major medical publication, showed activation of the a brain region, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a reduction when they felt better.

Despite such advances, diagnosis remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's symptoms started in the 1980s and felt like “a modelling balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. Doctors thought he had a sinus issue; he underwent four operations before finally being correctly identified in 2014, after a doctor looked up his symptoms.

Neurologists say wait times in diagnosis and treatment occur because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and low, but not in agony,” one says. He proceeds by eliminating other common head pain conditions, such as migraine, before confirming cluster headaches. A detailed history is essential: on which part of the head do symptoms occur? For how long? What season? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Certain characteristics such as redness, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help verify the diagnosis. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to specialist centers. But a lot of first arrive to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable therapies.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has suffered from the condition for the majority of her life, although she has been free from an attack since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars pulled because dental professionals misinterpreted her pain. She believes dentists still need much more education. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was she who replied. I remember calling a helpline during an attack in early 2021; a calm advisor guided me through oxygen therapy and medication until the episode passed.

National guidelines on treatment advise that patients are offered high-dose oxygen therapy and/or a specific medication delivered by injection. No tablets or opioids should be used. Prophylactic choices include verapamil, which reportedly helps manage the attacks of some individuals.

But leading neurologists believe the guidance need revising to reflect a more defined clinical process and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, timing is everything: “The duration of the bout determines the approach.” Short bouts with occasional attacks are handled with abortive treatment only. More prolonged or more intense periods require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with steroids. A significant number of patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a bout – an procedure into the side of the skull where the discomfort is that decreases nerve signals.

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